WORDS..!!!

what are my poems,
but just string of words.
rearranging patterns
like a flock of birds.

but this is how i say,
what is in my heart,
little stories of meetings,
and the tales of who depart

my life is not a rainbow,
beautifully colored in view.
there are shades of black,white
and lot of grey patches too..

but i love my life,
and all that came.
even the days of night,
when i lost it like a game.

ask me,
what keeps my hopes in
life so alive and so much of glow.
is that i love a girl
and she doesnt even know ;)

and when the time is right
i'll say this to her
that just the thought of her absence
makes my life look so blur.

no matter how many times
people ask me this..
each time hoping for something new...
my answer to their question, on what am i thinking
is always you... @_@


it seems so funny,
also like a lie.
but this is the truth
that even i cant deny.


and first time in life,
these words seem so
much than true,
that i will always love you,
more than what you think
or i say i do... !!!!

It was raining that Night...!!!!

Being here alone now
doesn't feel so good
if only things were different
maybe happier i think i would

i wont write anymore
this is my last
everything has finally come
to an end
all the roles have been cast

All the truth have been told
nothing inside is kept
in the dark corner of my heart
like a baby i wept

confessing was painful
especially when it was you
after all, you were someone special
in my world of few


the attic is clear,
all the things have been moved
no more are heard within,
all my thoughts have been brewed

I don't want you
to tell me its OK,
when i already know it aint so right.
I don't want you,
to say any lie
when i clearly know there is a fight

inside you,
that you hate to look at my face
and that
i should leave right now,
with all the little given grace

I don't want you
to tell that i care,
when even the smallest hurt
you just don't share

i don't want you
to fake any smile
even when you try so hard,
to keep my thoughts away for a while

and
when i try hard,
and mean all that i say,
you deeply pray that
i go far far away

i don't want you
to think i cannot see
that all you do is to
make me feel- this was not to be

All that i wish is,
that i could have done more
but now all what i did
has turned on so sour

and all i try is to be
somebody else
to make you feel am not so wrong
but i end up
so finally me,
with nothing but this stupid song

and in the end
when i think of my life
so far so bad
all that i thought were fine
aint so right, imperfection has clad

now, no matter how long
this will take,
i shall never regret
that loving you was a wrong choice to make

even though,
our world were apart
and,
never to meet
it was not actually an
impossible feat.

you were never wrong,
right here too, i agree
that there wasn't a tint
of love within you , for me

with a heavy heart,
i look at our story
just to make sure and believe
that you wont ever see me again,
and i have your memories with me to live

and of all, there is one thing
that fills my life with a beautiful sight.
maybe the only secret that
stayed within me..
and it was the moment i fell in love with you,
it was raining that night....!!!!!

Shooting star...!!!!

In the dark sky,
half past ten
sitting outside alone was when,
i suddenly saw a shooting star,
falling from the heaven so far.

quickly i closed my eyes
and made my wish,
mumbling it all
i looked like "Romeo" my gold fish

and then i wondered,
if those ever brought luck,love or anything at all.
after all they are matters from space
that had a fall.

confused and lost,
was trying to solve this mystery
i quickly messaged you asking for details,
tips, more info or any piece of history.
jotting all of them was
when i heard my message beep...
it was your good nite message
with a punch line.. SHUT UP AND SLEEP..!!! :)

And I Said....

I wonder what
will i say....
i think puffing
my last smoke of the day..

Rattling the thoughts
in my heart and mind,
its only you,
that i always find...

I prepare myself
like am writing some kinda test,
to make you realize
that I am the best

Please tell me,
how can I make you see..
that with you
am so always me...

that my words are
honest and my love is true,
your picture on orkut too,
feels so new :)

Not denying any fact
though so very odd,
that i often think of you
more than angles of their god

Asking myself
if will i ever say ??
I pacify myself
that maybe tomorrow is the day

what will you reply
there is no idea at least,
my chances feels so less,
because you are the beauty and am the beast

everyman has something to hide
is a fact so true,
but somebody please explain me,
why i hide my love from you ?

you are too sweet of a person,
a very good friend to loose
maybe that's the reason
not telling you this is what i choose

but without you
the world is lonelier than it seem
wish my words would make
you wanna give me a chance to redeem...!!!