lets Blame it all

well... i am certainly not good at this. For the matter of fact that I know it myself, i dont care what the other person thinks about this. for am not forcing anyone to read it nor follow or agree to it. but I do write this to put across what is there in my mind for its my right to express what i feel is right to the best of my knowledge, correct it if am wrong but never stop myself from expressing myself for the very aspect of my existence is determined by my expression.

I finally realized one thing in life. Its easier correction a lot more easier to sit at the other end and just talk about the infinite possibilities that could have worked out in every aspect of life what we witness everyday, but when it comes to putting the words into action, somehow things are not exactly the way we expected them to be. But hey, we dont give up that easy do we ? when do our people around us come handy ? what are they for ? blame it on them. either their ignorance or laziness that drove your entire work to drain and only if you had the right set of people around, you could be the man of your words. LOL..

sometimes its hard to belive that we still in a world so cynical, never reay to learn. but less do we realise that the world looks how we look at it. Am no different. Am a Hypocrite just like each one of you reading this. But atleast I agree to it. Not that am proud of it. Ashamed. to the core.

But somewhere i do wanna ask myself. will i ever learn ? if yes then WHEN ???? is there more that i need to see or experience before i finally accept it all ? i do. deep inside wanna change. learn. accept my faults and correct them. in short change. After all the change begins with one. the change does begin with me.

but there underlying question still lies.... Do I really want to ? ;)